He will take care of me

I prayed last night because I was in a dark place. I asked God to take care of me so that I could make it through another day. I repeated it over and over in my head "God take care of me" until i drifted off to sleep and had dreams that were not sad nor scary, just events that had happened and how they would have been if they had a different ending.

In my dreams the sky was clear, there was no pain and there was no fear, because I knew he would take care of me, because I asked him too.

It wasn't just while I was sleeping, but also as I was dreaming, breathing, eating walking talking, he will take care of me.

And it took me having to saying until I couldn't say it anymore, for me to have a peaceful sleep and wake up knowing that he allowed me to because I asked him too. I allowed me to get dress, put my shoes on smell great, look great and still have a job because I asked him too!

He took care of me and will continue to do so, because I asked him too.

Have you Seen me Lately??

I know that the title is throwing you off slightly, but this is not about being vain. I am aware of what I look like, but this is not about that. Although I am not hard on the eyes, people see what they want to see on the outside.

But have you seen me lately?

Have you asked me what is behind my smile, my tears, my laughter, and why I do what I do to keep moving along in this sad world we are in today?

So have you seen me lately?

Have you every just talked with me and heard my words and the passion that may be behind them? Whether I am speaking about a topic that I have dragged out for way too long, or my conversation is really short and now you are really wondering what is wrong, yet you do nothing? So I say and do nothing in return.

I sometimes have writers block and it will take me a month to finish a sentence when I have stopped it in mid air, or it may be that I just went blank and don't want to share.

But my questions have been going unanswered lately and I guess I am just talking to myself.

LOL

How can you really get to know me if you haven't seen the real me?
Shawn, who is the hungry girl inside of me.. she is 217 lbs and loves to eat. She also has a temper. Can you say you have ever seen her? A few have, and she is not too nice. Ask my BFF's and people at work...they are scared of her when it comes to food. LOL

Shawnta is a lady that yearns to be with someone that will be there without conditions and wants to stay cute and young as loved. Unconditional love ....Hi-Five 1993

Yet I still ask have you seen me lately?
What makes you want to see me? Know me? Talk to me and know me?
Share with me...What do you see when you look at my pictures or me in person?
So you see what you want to see or do you see me?