Love Letter to my Ex's

I know that I am something like a beast. Yet every time I think of my ex’s that never really rang true. You see the ones that I left was because they weren’t enough for me. I cut them down at times or we just didn’t mesh. Yet the ones that left me, I felt we were the best. But apparently we weren’t if they are my ex. I can name three or five that really broke my heart. Yet I have to thank them all for what they did because they made me stronger in knowing that I can do better than them with how they treated me. Because you see, I would put me aside to make them feel like they were the Kings in my life. Yet they really truly never made me feel like a Queen that I regin to be. As most know I act as if I didn’t need someone; I needed them…at the time they were with me. Looking at it now, I tolerated more than I would from the ones that I had left. Just to hold on to what I thought could be. One had me to the point of a nervous breakdown. One did make me break down. One just broke my heart and for years I was bitter. And this last one lied, cheated, just plain ole disregarded me and threatened me. Hmm, so why am I thanking them? Because they are making way for the King that God is sending to me. Yes I understand that everything happens for a reason, season and lifetime. I can’t be mad if I missed a sign here and there because I had faith in something that I thought would be. Yet knowing that I can let God lead the way now, I feel at ease. I am worth so much more than to be hidden from sight, not being showcased or talked about in the best way. If I make you someone special in my life, I am worth the appreciation and excitement that comes with it. I have heard there are plenty that would love to have the attention that I gave those ex’s…and for that I understand.

I am just worth so much more. Thank you guys for trying to shut me down and belittle what we had. In the end, you are the ones that are going to be mad. Mad that you let your ego make a bad choice to end this so bad. I am something like a beast. In a way that I know what I want, love long and love hard. Protective and proud to announce to the world when I have found the diamond in the rough. Being associated with me is not such a bad thing… ask my first love, ex-husband and best male friend. See I left those guys, yet they were never that bad, well maybe my ex-husband…yeah, he was bad. But they will still sing my praises til this day. After one apology, things became ok. Yes, I have to say thank you to those ex’s of mine. Thank you for leaving me, even though you know I am a dime. More woman than you could handle, something I will not deny. I may have let you hurt me some, but not enough to make me stop looking for the right one. Thank you.