I'm Back!

I have been gone for awhile and dealing with some heavy things on my heart. As you know life happens. And I have been blessed beyond words. Since the last time I wrote, I have been accepted into Wells Fargo as a permanent employee..my year is coming up in Feb 2014. I have lost some friends, just due to a difference in our lives and agenda. Yet I have not understood if it was me or them. I just know that I had to let go. Yet I have found myself thinking of other things along the way this year. Relationships, kids (the idea of them),peoples hidden agenda's and career goals. I have yet to finish my 3rd book and apart of me doesn't know if I really should. Well I take that back, I know that I should, but do I want too. Is it something my fans are going to want to read it? Will it be just something to do? I have also been working on getting to know more about my inner self and why my writing has come to a halt. Is it that I only did it because someone told me I couldn't and now that I have, I have made my point? I love writing and keeping my characters alive, but at the same time, are people loving them, needing them, missing them in there lives? Or is that just me? Are my books my own release from my reality? All the while, sometimes I fear that what I write will some how give life to certain situations (no pun intended) in my own life. My future writings that is. I have also decided to write my memoirs...and I already know that if and when it gets published, heads will turn, eyes will roll and more questions will come about. But it is the only way to put certain things to rest that still travel within my mind and spirit. Will it be all worth it? I hope so. I know that I am not everyone's cup of tea. But I have also learn within this past year, that not everyone will like me, care for me and understand me. And I have also learn that what other DO think about me is not really my business. And I hope that I keep that going. In this world that is now ran by social media, I have to figure out what is the best course of action that I will use in marketing this final book and also in hopes to maybe get some movies in order for them. Or plays...I do think that if produced the right way, both books can be turned into a sitcom or movie. I know that is my dream, but let's see how well it will do. Needless to say with all my rambling, I'M BACK! LET'S GET IT!