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From me to you, Merry Christmas and Happy Kwanza!

And now it begins

Sorry to offend

I am sick of men saying they are looking for a good woman, claiming to be a good man. If you were so good, then why are you single? If you were so honest, why is there a line of hearts broken from behind you? Maybe you were looking in the mirror and praying that one day you would stop kidding yourself about who you really are and what you really want.

Funny, you probably thought you were really being sincere with your words when you first said I love you, but really didn't know what the word meant at all.
So are you sure you are looking for a good woman? Are you sure she hadn't been in front of you all this time, time and time again?

Stop playing with yourself and admit when you are wrong, mean, hurtful and foolish. If you can say honestly that you know who you are and what you want, then maybe your Mrs. Right will be there for you with open arms unconditionally and you won't reject her every time she don't bow down.

Sorry fellas if I offended you, but stop playing the victim when you are why you are alone.

I am more than....

I am more than a pretty face, with an hour glass shape. I am a woman with a brain, hence my three degrees, yet that is not what one sees when they see me. Some see sex, some see a hard exterior or better yet a strong personality. Yet they don't want to see what really lies beneath all of that. I have embraced that I am a sexual being and will not apologize for being the best I can be at that. I will not apologize for having a strong personality because that is me, my make up and all I know how to be. And to be honest I kinda like calling peoples bluff because they think they have it all figured out, when known of us really do. But those that approach me just have a lot of fluff.

I am an Aunt, who has more than one niece and nephew. If you didn't know, I have been married before, however my in-laws divorced me when I divorced him. So my nieces and nephews really don't know me well, but I am sure they will find out when they get older. Yet, I have a blood nephew, whom I adore no matter what!

I am Sister, and from what I know to just one by blood, but claim many that have loved me for whom I am in that brother sister way.

I am a Daughter, too many. But my blood parents, I must say I am not the best to them. I can be mean and yes, I will say sometimes ungrateful. My words can be harsh and I don't mean them to be...but hey, them and God made me....

I am a Friend, I try to be the best I can. Yet I know I work a lot of nerves and I can be soo selfish at times, or whiny, yet, when you need me, I will be there...I just want the same in return. I will ride for you if you ride for me....

I am a woman, who's heart cries sometimes for the simple things..I play hard and love harder. Sometimes that is not the best so I have been told, yet I feel that is how you should be. Passion runs through me when I speak about the things, people and places that I love. I am more than sex, I am more than my body, I am more than my semi-youthful face...

Lets see if you will take to the time to get to know who I am. Or even yourself....

Dreams

Sometimes I have dreams that are too real for me. And I think that if I tell someone about them that they will look at me as if horns were going out of my head. I once had a dream that I had a house in California and it was not that far from the Jackson's and Janet and I were really cool...silly I know, but it was real to me. We were just hanging out and shooting the breeze. All of a sudden it got really cold and I looked around and no one was around me. I woke up and felt alone. How odd is that?

The reason why I share that particular dream is because sometimes our realities were once dreams that we make come true or they just happen to be. Now I am not saying that me and Janet will ever meet and be friends and all that. But you never know, I still may have that house in California and be able to say I can see her from across the way...you never know.

LOL, I am just rambling...theses are my thoughts and I like to share sometimes....The feeling alone part has to do with the seasons of why people are in your life and for how long. Until now, I have never been able to NOT get attached to people and believe everything thing they say to me. I use to want to be liked by everyone and prayed that those that came into my life would never leave. But as a grown-up and learning some heavy life lessons, I am learning that you have to allow people to walk away from you to learn those lessons as well.

If you have a dream that is trying to tell you something, or sub-consciously you already know what it is about, don't ignore it, roll with it and see what happens.

My dreams tell me alot about me and how I feel about certain things. So right now, I am just going to role with it...Can you say you are doing the same?

What You Think and Say about Me is None of My Business

Some Men have said: You are a HORRIBLE HUMAN BEING! You are an UNGRATEFUL individual. You are NOT a CHILD OR WOMAN OF GOD! You are the reason why you are going thru all the hard times you are in now! You are getting what you deserve!

I say: Thank you and God bless you.

Others feel I should say: Kick rocks you ignorant Nucca! You weren't worth my time no way!

But that is not me. What I have done is channel my energy in other ways. I am writing and focusing on me. So how was what these men have to say about me any of my business just because I won't give them what they want? Hmmmm...

Some Women have said:You are TIRED, a GROUPIE, you are WORTHLESS!

I say: You wish you were me, and were able to be around the people I have and do the things that I have done. Yet YOU are the one thinking about me after ten years have past and saying these things...Your name again is??

Others feel I should say: Bitch please! Kick rocks!

But that is not me right now. It is true that when people are talking about you and thinking about you, you are relevant. It is when they don't, then you should worry. Truth be told, I have been talked about all my life, good and bad..but honestly, what you think about me, is really none of my business. My life is not for anyone but God. Because when it is all said and done, he is My Alpha and Omega. Not one person can change that.

Take me as I am

I wonder sometimes how long it takes for people to realize when they can't win certain battles? I have thought long and hard about some of the battles that I have had to face and fight and realized that I can't and will not win them all. But I have had fun trying. You see, I have always been one of those types of people that like to show off and show out because I have always been the underdog. They never thought I would do what I would say I would or expected me to fail. It has always been a game to me to prove everyone wrong.

Well now that I have been humbled down to the place that I am in, regardless of my degrees, my books and my social status, I am looking at things in a new light. None of it matters without someone to share it with.

I have yet to experience a man that wants to share his soul with me and believe in mine. Now don't get it twisted I have come close. But not to the point where I wanted to share it all. As a matter of fact they didn't want to share theirs with me. But they did want to share something else.

I can keep it real with you because I am the one writing this. I have always been looked at as something that I really wasn't. However I have never corrected it. I just rolled with it and said nothing. It has all been an illusion. I am not the stuck up chick people think I am. I am not the chick you can keep running over and not think it won't bit you in the rear.
If we are friends and you take it for granted and try to come back, I am not that lap dog you can keep kicking when you are having a messed up day.

It's been a long tine since I have had to say this. But here it is. I love the mess out of me whether you believe it or not. And if my being is not good enough for you, you can love me the way I am, or leave me the hell alone.

Mary J said it best, Take me, as I am. Or have nothing at all.

poet songwriter songstres...Siraj Nuri 07/10 by Survive 365 | Blog Talk Radio

poet songwriter songstres...Siraj Nuri 07/10 by Survive 365 | Blog Talk Radio

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