Take me as I am

I wonder sometimes how long it takes for people to realize when they can't win certain battles? I have thought long and hard about some of the battles that I have had to face and fight and realized that I can't and will not win them all. But I have had fun trying. You see, I have always been one of those types of people that like to show off and show out because I have always been the underdog. They never thought I would do what I would say I would or expected me to fail. It has always been a game to me to prove everyone wrong.

Well now that I have been humbled down to the place that I am in, regardless of my degrees, my books and my social status, I am looking at things in a new light. None of it matters without someone to share it with.

I have yet to experience a man that wants to share his soul with me and believe in mine. Now don't get it twisted I have come close. But not to the point where I wanted to share it all. As a matter of fact they didn't want to share theirs with me. But they did want to share something else.

I can keep it real with you because I am the one writing this. I have always been looked at as something that I really wasn't. However I have never corrected it. I just rolled with it and said nothing. It has all been an illusion. I am not the stuck up chick people think I am. I am not the chick you can keep running over and not think it won't bit you in the rear.
If we are friends and you take it for granted and try to come back, I am not that lap dog you can keep kicking when you are having a messed up day.

It's been a long tine since I have had to say this. But here it is. I love the mess out of me whether you believe it or not. And if my being is not good enough for you, you can love me the way I am, or leave me the hell alone.

Mary J said it best, Take me, as I am. Or have nothing at all.