Monday, May 31, 2010

Personal Interview Questions


Personal Interview Question from my friends and fans on Facebook.


Darrell C Bland
If u look at where your life is now as opposed to where u was a year ago, can tell me about the next year of where u will be.

Answer: I pray that I will still be in good sound mind body and soul. I pray that I will be promoting my third book at a book signing in Atlanta or Chicago, or my home town of Denver Co, and writing a screen play for my first book to become a movie.

James C. Burroughs

What makes you happy?
What makes you sad?
What turns you on?
What turns you off?
How do you want to be remembered?
What is your biggest regret?
How do you want it?
Who will always have your heart?
What touches your spirit?

Answers: What makes me happy, good food great company and peace of mind
What makes me sad, when people lie to me because they think I can’t handle the truth
What turns me on, a great smelling man and a sexy smile
What turns me off, liars
How I want to be remembered, as someone that was true to her heart.
My biggest regret would have to be not guarding my heart more.
How do I want what?? I like my steak well done!
Who will always have your heart, A young man that was acknowledged in my second book
What touches my spirit, the truth and real love.


Regina Steiner
What inspires you about writing novels?

Answer: I have so much to say and I have been told that I am a good story teller, yet I just write because I don’t like to speak all the time believe it or not. LOL!

Brandon Corley May 29 at 8:20pm
What makes a great recipe for a good man?

Answer: Hmmm, I know that he has to truly understand his relationship with God. And once that is there, and then he has to be funny, able to handle any conversation. Be able to cook, and know how to let his woman in long enough to know how to she can be there for him without it being a guessing game. If that makes sense.

Michael Wulf: May 31, 2010
Ok, my questions are:
I heard you are from St. Paul, West St. Paul, is that true?
Why Atlanta?
What topic would you write about (any genre' - fact, fiction, etc..) that you feel would reach people to make a difference in society?
Answers: I went to High School in West St. Paul and lived in St. Paul for awhile after high school.
I choose Atlanta because it was where I was suppose to go to College for my undergraduate degree. But at that time I wasn’t ready to move away, and I wasn’t ready mentally. So I stayed and grew up for a while.
Right now, I write fiction, for all audiences. I am not sure if I will write anything more than that for now, however things can change.




Brandon CashflowAtlanta Alexander: May 31, 2010
How do you go about writing a book? Like in order to go from start to finish?
Answer: I don’t have a particular format of how I write. My style of writing is just to do it. And I hope it flows. I have the characters in my head and I bring them to light through I how I think they should sound what they should feel and how they should be or not be. Writing is just a way for me to release my imagination without judgment.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Better to Have Loved than Not at All.

I have been thinking about this whole love thang. And I know that I have truly loved before and enjoyed how I felt when that person appreciated it. Or said that they also loved me too.
But does love really last forever? Can it last forever? Or should it?
Do people just settle when the love fades and make themselves believe that it is real?

I know my real love is when I let the little things slide and laugh at silly stuff when they are not there. Or when I wake up to a late night call and they want nothing but just to hear my voice or send a cute text, and I not look at the time and get mad. My real love is when I pray that person against all odds or what anyone else has to say because I know that the connection is there.

Oh well, at least I have loved and really loved and I can't complain, because it was great when it was great and I will remember and that that with me always.

Cause had I not loved at all, then it would have been a waste of time.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Listen to Me


Many times people take other peoples words for granted. And some times people say things just to get what they want. And I have had to think about that from time to time. I wondered was I one of those that would say something to get what I want, or tell you something just to get a rise out of you.

Maybe when I was younger, and maybe when I was hurting. But now, I can't afford to say nothing to no one that I don't mean.

If I tell you something, then believe it.
If you hear something that I have said and you are not sure about it, ask me.

If you want to know more about me, then listen to me by reading my words. Looking at my pictures, learning my friends.

All my words are there for you to see, and hear. So listen to me, far or near.
Listen to me and you will find out something you never knew, or maybe something that was right in front of you. Just stop, and listen to me.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

A last.


I woke up today pondering what has been going on in the last month. It has almost been 30 days since I last felt my heart beat faster than it had in two years. And right now, I feel nothing. Don't get me wrong, I am alive and certain things do still make me smile, but something is still on my heart that won't let go.

What would it take to feel that feeling again? What would it take to be numb and not worry about it again? Praying helps, yet the feelings steam from that too.

Have you ever prayed for someone unselfishly and never understood why them? Why would you pray for them and not ones before?

At last I ask myself, what is it going to take to get my heart back beating the way it did less than 30 days ago?

I shall wait, and ponder that today.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My Eyes are My Soul


Some would say that they know me, yet they only know what I let them see. If you have never looked in my eyes and deep into my heart, then you really don't know me at all. I have up a wall at times from those that I sense mean me harm. Yet I sense when someone needs to know me if I look into their eyes and read what they see. Most are as confused and troubled as I have been before.
I have been told that my truths could help someone and that I should share more. Yet they aren't ready for my truths yet. So I wait and rather them ask before I just give out information that they may not be ready for.

You see when you look into my eyes really, you can see my pain that I have carried around in my heart. You can hear it in my voice, my laugh and sometimes in my sigh. I may say that I am fine, and for the moment, I just may be. Yet my soul says different and I have yet to release all of that to others.

I have before and most have taken it and bruised it more, attacked it and even ran with it.
So until you really want to sit down and know me before judging me, ask yourself this.
Are you ready to listen?
Are you ready to open up your heart and mind?
Are you ready to look at yourself through my eyes?

My eyes are my soul. Look if you dare.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Today in my world


I have to say that right now, I am feeling a Jones, a Love Jones if you will. For who, well that is hard to say. One is someone that will love me til the end of time, the other is not ready yet has had me for too long. I have to choose today, for my own well being. I am pondering how to give the same love to just one and let the other go....Today in my world, I my choose my Lord, over man. He will not let me fall, he will lift me up always, nothing will stop him from being there when I need him to be. HE will love me no matter what I achieve and praise me when even the littlest thing great happens to me.

Yes, I have a Love Jones for my Lord, and today, HE wins.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Drowning

Fading away like a old instant picture. Losing my breathe because my heart hurts, all the while, you do nothing, say nothing, you drown out my crys, my words, my pain with other things to do. People are disposable to you, and so is my heart, I am drowning in the fear of knowing its over. Yet can I honestly say I didn't want it to be? Can I honestly say that I don't you just like you don't want me? Is it that I felt betrayed when we were together in hopes that you would GET IT together? You stopped doing the simple things, like calling every other day, just to say hey and see how I was doing. No more texting me pictures of me saying that this is why you can't sleep. Because visions of me keep you up at night. I guess your feelings got the best of you and your were drowning in something, what more could i do? I am here and you were there, yet, you let everything stop. The blood from my heart filled up to it's max, and now left me feeling as if I am suffocating. Suffocating from all the hurt, all the lies, all the moments when I thought you were keeping it real, and it was just a front in my eyes.
I am drowning in this sorrow and this felling of non existence to you. Hopeless in thinking what I did was the right thing to do, yet, I haven't gotten a response from you. I guess I won't because that is what you do.
So I guess I will drown myself with my books, my God, and my packed away love for you.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Self Evaluation.

So I am thinking about what has happened over these past couple of weeks. And I still have some unanswered questions from loved ones in my life. Question like, how could you leave me when you said you never would? How could you say you loved me when your action show otherwise? What did I do to you to make you feel like it was ok to hurt me in anyway?

I ask these questions because my heart hurts, and I can't seem to understand why it keeps going on with friends, family and those that I love. Funny, I have been known to give great advice in the past, but it doesn't seem to work for me. So I just listen and take it all in and self evaluate.

The success I have created for myself has become lonely, and yet I wonder, if I were just a regular person, or maybe just a statistic, would things be different for me. I have been told that I intimidate most, and that is why I am single. I have been told that I am too nice, and that is why people take advantage...SO what so I really do? Become evil? Become a Statistic, become that one chick that will do any and everything to get people to love her, like her and stay?

Naw, I can't do that. My Pride, and my Ego, will not let me.

Friday, May 7, 2010

OMG

What a week this has been! I have been out of the loop as far as the web world goes and have been going crazy! No internet and no computer can really take a toll on someone. Anyway, I am back. So what did I miss?

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Hmm

So I am just here. I am ok with how things are going now, yet, there is something missing. I am trying to figure out what it is.