Drowning

Fading away like a old instant picture. Losing my breathe because my heart hurts, all the while, you do nothing, say nothing, you drown out my crys, my words, my pain with other things to do. People are disposable to you, and so is my heart, I am drowning in the fear of knowing its over. Yet can I honestly say I didn't want it to be? Can I honestly say that I don't you just like you don't want me? Is it that I felt betrayed when we were together in hopes that you would GET IT together? You stopped doing the simple things, like calling every other day, just to say hey and see how I was doing. No more texting me pictures of me saying that this is why you can't sleep. Because visions of me keep you up at night. I guess your feelings got the best of you and your were drowning in something, what more could i do? I am here and you were there, yet, you let everything stop. The blood from my heart filled up to it's max, and now left me feeling as if I am suffocating. Suffocating from all the hurt, all the lies, all the moments when I thought you were keeping it real, and it was just a front in my eyes.
I am drowning in this sorrow and this felling of non existence to you. Hopeless in thinking what I did was the right thing to do, yet, I haven't gotten a response from you. I guess I won't because that is what you do.
So I guess I will drown myself with my books, my God, and my packed away love for you.