Old School Real Love

I have been inspired and I have to share. Today an old friend and I must admit an old crush reminded me what real love is. He reminded me of this because he just randomly gave a shot out to his love, his partner, the mother of his children and his wife on a public site without shame. Never blinked an eye when it came to what he wanted, what he needed and what he had in her. And her name fits what she is to him. Sparkle. She is more than just someone he met, she believed in him when others didn't. Me included. Hell never tried to know him, but my loss was all of her gain and she deserve it. Sparkle in his smile, his eye and even in his children's faces. Hell, I must say that I am jealous cause I would like to be that type of Sparkle in someones life, eyes and smile.

What they have is that old school loving that has somewhat been tossed under a rug and left to die. But if they have it, and it can be proven, then I gotta make it known. Men, if you want to learn how to get lost in your family and not lose your self, ask him how it is done. Cause Sparkle, every time i see her, she is smiling! No lie, she is happy without concern, cause she knows she has him for life.
Ladies, if you want to know how to get your man to cherish everything that you stand for, Look at how he smiles and speaks about his wife without conviction. Look at how he dismisses all those that come at him sideways, cause at the end of the day, you can not compete to that Sparkle in his life, his eyes and his smile.

Love that Old School Real Love. Keep it alive, and never let it die.

In Whom Should I Trust

Shawnta Richard- In Whom Should I Trust Promo

Follow Your Dreams

It has been a long time coming for me and I feel like there is a blessing over me and those that I have come in contact with. I moved here to Atlanta to have change of scenery and to get some things together for my life. Since I have been here I have re-invented myself as a serious author and a woman of my word. I will graduate in July and my third book to this series is coming out. I am excited about this and I just wanted to share that with you all.

Thank you for those that have helped make this happen.

BlackNews.com - Author Shawnta' C. Richard Publishes Second Novel, "In Whom Should I Trust"

BlackNews.com - Author Shawnta' C. Richard Publishes Second Novel, "In Whom Should I Trust"

Loss

Today is not just a regular day for me like any other. It is a day that I have learned that more than one person that was close to me has gone to be with the lord. And it makes me very sad to know this.

Sad to know that I will never have a conversation with those people and let them know what type of impact they made on my life. I will never be able to thank them for the knowledge they have given to me. I will never be able to just say hey, how you doing, talk to you later. Because later will not come.

I am thankful for all that has been given to me in life and the people that have been there and shared a little piece of themselves with me.

RIP to all those that have fallen and are on there way to a better place. May your love and legacy live on forever.

Mint Condition - Breakin' My Heart (Pretty Brown Eyes)

Who are you

Have you ever sat and wondered if you were the same person you were yesterday as you are today?

Did you think back two to three years back to realize something could have been different, yet you are still doing the same damn thing that still could have been avoided because that should have already been a lesson learned?

The choices that you made ten years ago, would the be the same ten years from now?
Of course not.

But how will you really know?

So who are you now compared to yesterday and then who will you be tomorrow?

He will take care of me

I prayed last night because I was in a dark place. I asked God to take care of me so that I could make it through another day. I repeated it over and over in my head "God take care of me" until i drifted off to sleep and had dreams that were not sad nor scary, just events that had happened and how they would have been if they had a different ending.

In my dreams the sky was clear, there was no pain and there was no fear, because I knew he would take care of me, because I asked him too.

It wasn't just while I was sleeping, but also as I was dreaming, breathing, eating walking talking, he will take care of me.

And it took me having to saying until I couldn't say it anymore, for me to have a peaceful sleep and wake up knowing that he allowed me to because I asked him too. I allowed me to get dress, put my shoes on smell great, look great and still have a job because I asked him too!

He took care of me and will continue to do so, because I asked him too.

Have you Seen me Lately??

I know that the title is throwing you off slightly, but this is not about being vain. I am aware of what I look like, but this is not about that. Although I am not hard on the eyes, people see what they want to see on the outside.

But have you seen me lately?

Have you asked me what is behind my smile, my tears, my laughter, and why I do what I do to keep moving along in this sad world we are in today?

So have you seen me lately?

Have you every just talked with me and heard my words and the passion that may be behind them? Whether I am speaking about a topic that I have dragged out for way too long, or my conversation is really short and now you are really wondering what is wrong, yet you do nothing? So I say and do nothing in return.

I sometimes have writers block and it will take me a month to finish a sentence when I have stopped it in mid air, or it may be that I just went blank and don't want to share.

But my questions have been going unanswered lately and I guess I am just talking to myself.

LOL

How can you really get to know me if you haven't seen the real me?
Shawn, who is the hungry girl inside of me.. she is 217 lbs and loves to eat. She also has a temper. Can you say you have ever seen her? A few have, and she is not too nice. Ask my BFF's and people at work...they are scared of her when it comes to food. LOL

Shawnta is a lady that yearns to be with someone that will be there without conditions and wants to stay cute and young as loved. Unconditional love ....Hi-Five 1993

Yet I still ask have you seen me lately?
What makes you want to see me? Know me? Talk to me and know me?
Share with me...What do you see when you look at my pictures or me in person?
So you see what you want to see or do you see me?

I am not afraid to tell you that....

I am not afraid to tell you that…


I have cried myself to sleep many of times
I am saved but God is still working on me
I have loved someone before that didn’t love me back the way I thought they should
I have wished I was someone else
I can be very bitchy and loud
I can be standoffish if you are different from me
I think like a man at times when it comes to relationships and maybe that is why I am single
I have been a fool in love before and stayed a little longer than I needed too
I am a damn good friend, but don’t turn on me, cause it will never be the same again.
I would marry for money, why not?
I am not perfect, but sometimes expect you to be, so it will balance out

Pretty much when it boils down to it, I am not afraid to tell you that I am just a woman trying to find herself and prince charming all in one. Yet I am afraid that when he sees this, well, he may not know how to accept me.

I am not afraid to tell you that, you have to either love all of me or none of me at all.

What is important to you

Have you ever sat done and wondered what was really important to you? People, places or things, are these ringing a bell? Can you live without a certain item over a person? Or can you live without going to a certain place over your sanity?

Many times we make choices that may not make sense at the time we do them or are even down right stupid. Yet you do them and are suppose to learn from them.

But what happens when you don't learn the lesson that you are suppose to?

When it comes to people, do you value them more than what you have to offer yourself?

People always say they can motivate you and want you to follow what they believe. Well what will you believe? Do you believe in yourself enough to know when you are not being treated right? Do you have to follow someone else word in order to get a clue?
Granted I have been there and done that, so I am not sitting on my high horse and judging anyone.

Just sharing my thoughts with you and getting feedback.

I have been wrong before.

But let me ask you this, how many times have you looked to someone else for help before you look within yourself? How much money has been shelled out to those that say they can help you with your inner peace? Or showing you the way to follow something that wasn't really important at all?

People, place or thing....
Have you ever moved somewhere to get away from something or someone? Thinking that you will escape whatever it is that is bothering you are disturbing your peace? I have, hell I have done it couple of times. Did it help, maybe. But it was important to me to find me again.

But I'm just talking.

What was important to me was to follow what I believed in. I believed in me more than anyone else did and that was why I ask this question to you all...

What is important to you?

Person, place or things?

Lastly I have been ask over and over again why am I single?
Well that is a loaded question. Kinda like the question why do people cheat? Why is the sky blue? I don't know. You would have to ask my ex's why they are not with me. I can tell you why I am not with them. Because they weren't ready.
Maybe they weren't ready for me and who I am really. I am not perfect, but I am no ones fool either.
They say a man will only do what a woman allows them to do, yet if I allow you not to hurt me and treat me like hell, then guess what, I am alone for that reason.
But that also goes with anyone. Friends, family members and so on.
So what is important to me?

Me.

32 at is finest

On July 8th 1978 at 3:27pm, Shawnta Cherice Turner was born and brought into the world by God and her parents for the world to embrace, love and enjoy her gifts and talents.

I am blessed in so many ways, and I can't begin to tell you what God has done for me. All jokes aside, I know my ways, writing topics are not holy, but they are what I write about and God has given me this talent and this mind, and I will use it as I know how. I am grateful for my fans, friends and family.

32 has never looked this good, felt this good and been this blessed!

Thank you lord for making 32 a great year for me!

Good Loving Addiction

Have you ever just laid in your bed thinking about that one last time you shared with an ex? You knew it was about to be over, but you just couldn't not think about all that good loving. You may have had nothing in common, but the sex was right. The taste, the smell, the feeling....you know what I am talking about.

Ladies, You remember a time where it just came out of no where and he just took you the way you wanted it? No questions asked. Flipped you, licked you, tugged at your hair a little bit and smacked dat ass...Oh wee!

Or fellas, when she came in and said nothing. Laid across the bed and looked at you and then undid your pants and did things you thought only Superhead could do? You know what I am talking about!

Have you ever just had loving that put you in a coma, and you didn't mind not going to work the next day? Because you were still high off that loving that took place night before and didn't end until the wee hours of the morning? Or walking kinda sideways, head hurting, legs feeling weak? You know you are feeling me!

But then you realize that that was all you had. That Good Loving Addiction. Loving so good you would think about that person while you were with the next just to get off...or is that just me? hehehehe

All I am asking is, do you remember that Good Loving Addiction that you once had that topped the rest? Would you say that they were the best to their face? Or just keep that memory as it is?
Would you consider taking them back just for that one last time and try to make it work off that?

Hmmm....Good Loving Addiction....Ooowee! That is one hella of a drug!

Press Release

Minnesota Author, Shawnta’ C. Richard, Set to Publish Second Novel “In Whom Should I Trust”

Atlanta June 16, 2010 -- Fans of the novel Situations are in for a treat this year as Ms. Shawnta’ C. Richard announces that she is in the works for re-creating her second novel In Whom Should I Trust. The novel is set to be finished in July 2010.
Richards’ received glowing reviews for her first novel, Situations, from fans back in 2004.

Regan Richardson from Minneapolis said "When you think you have the story figured out, an unseen twist comes about. This book is realistic and a page turner, you want to know what would happen next. What a great novel! I look forward to reading more from Ms. Shawnta' C. Richard."

Not only are Richards' fans noticing her talent but other artists are as well. She has been at book signings with seasoned authors such as Eric Jerome Dickey and was spotted on CNN with Hill Harper at his book signing in Atlanta last year. Richards’ has also been mentioned on The Steve Harvey Morning Show.

The author explains that her books are for all adults but mainly for young women in their early twenties to mid 30's. Anyone that loves some type of drama comedy or love story can appreciate this author's work.
In Whom Should I Trust brings back some familiar characters and once again told through their eyes, the audience will be able to see how deception, dysfunction and changes the outcome of these character lives.

About the Author:
Shawnta' C. Richard was born in 1978 on an air force base in Denver Colorado. She moved to Minnesota in 1986 and began her writing career. Writing was a way for her to express her feelings when she couldn’t find the words to come out right. Richards’ has since left to pursue her writing career. Situations is her first published novel. Richards’ currently resides in Atlanta.
For more information about the novel and the author, visit www.booksyoulove.biz. Both books will be available for order on Amazon, Barnes and Noble and Xlibris by the end of July 2010.
Shawnta’ C. Richard “I write what you are really thinking.”

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I am Blessed

It has been awhile since I have wrote to the world. Letting people in is sometimes hard because you never know when someone will accept you for you or not. And even if they do, they still have certain judgment.

I have had my own judgment on my own situations and feel that somethings I have done or do, would be something to talk about. Yet I think that other people should maybe act a certain way as well. But then again, who am I?

I know that I am blessed because everything that I have said that I was going to do, I have done. It may not have been to the best of what people think in their eyes, but can they say that they have done all that I have done?

Can you say that You as a person can't do what I am or have been doing?

When people say they envy me, I am humble. I feel that anything that I have done or am doing, others can do if they want.

I know that I am blessed because I do have God on my side.

Trust me I am not a Saint, by any means, but I know what a real thing is when I see it, feel it and believe it.

I believe that if I am physically able, then I can do it.
I thank God every day that He has allowed me to meet the people that I have met, have the experiences that I have had, good and bad.

I just wanted to let you all know, I am truly blessed.

Thank you

Have you ever wondered what it really is that someone is thinking about when they look at your face, in your eyes, or at your pictures?
Do you think if there wasn’t a facebook, MySpace or any type of social media that you would have so many friends, admires or stalkers for that matter?
You ever wonder what life was really like before the internet, dating shows, and dating networking sites?
Hmmm about some time ago, I was approached by someone online and to my surprise he wasn’t all that bad. Yet we would have never met had it not been for pictures that were seen online that I was in.

Funny, I have seen people in pictures, and never thought to look them up, hit them up or try to date them. I just network. Funny thing is, had it not been for this person, I may have never been where I am right now.

All the pain, the struggle and some good times, it was worth it. It was worth know that one person to connect me to all the new people that I have in my life now.

And all I have to say is Thank you.

Personal Interview Questions

Personal Interview Question from my friends and fans on Facebook.


Darrell C Bland
If u look at where your life is now as opposed to where u was a year ago, can tell me about the next year of where u will be.

Answer: I pray that I will still be in good sound mind body and soul. I pray that I will be promoting my third book at a book signing in Atlanta or Chicago, or my home town of Denver Co, and writing a screen play for my first book to become a movie.

James C. Burroughs

What makes you happy?
What makes you sad?
What turns you on?
What turns you off?
How do you want to be remembered?
What is your biggest regret?
How do you want it?
Who will always have your heart?
What touches your spirit?

Answers: What makes me happy, good food great company and peace of mind
What makes me sad, when people lie to me because they think I can’t handle the truth
What turns me on, a great smelling man and a sexy smile
What turns me off, liars
How I want to be remembered, as someone that was true to her heart.
My biggest regret would have to be not guarding my heart more.
How do I want what?? I like my steak well done!
Who will always have your heart, A young man that was acknowledged in my second book
What touches my spirit, the truth and real love.

Regina Steiner
What inspires you about writing novels?

Answer: I have so much to say and I have been told that I am a good story teller, yet I just write because I don’t like to speak all the time believe it or not. LOL!

Brandon Corley May 29 at 8:20pm
What makes a great recipe for a good man?

Answer: Hmmm, I know that he has to truly understand his relationship with God. And once that is there, and then he has to be funny, able to handle any conversation. Be able to cook, and know how to let his woman in long enough to know how to she can be there for him without it being a guessing game. If that makes sense.

Michael Wulf: May 31, 2010
Ok, my questions are:
I heard you are from St. Paul, West St. Paul, is that true?
Why Atlanta?
What topic would you write about (any genre' - fact, fiction, etc..) that you feel would reach people to make a difference in society?
Answers: I went to High School in West St. Paul and lived in St. Paul for awhile after high school.
I choose Atlanta because it was where I was suppose to go to College for my undergraduate degree. But at that time I wasn’t ready to move away, and I wasn’t ready mentally. So I stayed and grew up for a while.
Right now, I write fiction, for all audiences. I am not sure if I will write anything more than that for now, however things can change.



Brandon CashflowAtlanta Alexander: May 31, 2010
How do you go about writing a book? Like in order to go from start to finish?
Answer: I don’t have a particular format of how I write. My style of writing is just to do it. And I hope it flows. I have the characters in my head and I bring them to light through I how I think they should sound what they should feel and how they should be or not be. Writing is just a way for me to release my imagination without judgment.

Better to Have Loved than Not at All.

I have been thinking about this whole love thang. And I know that I have truly loved before and enjoyed how I felt when that person appreciated it. Or said that they also loved me too.
But does love really last forever? Can it last forever? Or should it?
Do people just settle when the love fades and make themselves believe that it is real?

I know my real love is when I let the little things slide and laugh at silly stuff when they are not there. Or when I wake up to a late night call and they want nothing but just to hear my voice or send a cute text, and I not look at the time and get mad. My real love is when I pray that person against all odds or what anyone else has to say because I know that the connection is there.

Oh well, at least I have loved and really loved and I can't complain, because it was great when it was great and I will remember and that that with me always.

Cause had I not loved at all, then it would have been a waste of time.

Listen to Me

Many times people take other peoples words for granted. And some times people say things just to get what they want. And I have had to think about that from time to time. I wondered was I one of those that would say something to get what I want, or tell you something just to get a rise out of you.

Maybe when I was younger, and maybe when I was hurting. But now, I can't afford to say nothing to no one that I don't mean.

If I tell you something, then believe it.
If you hear something that I have said and you are not sure about it, ask me.

If you want to know more about me, then listen to me by reading my words. Looking at my pictures, learning my friends.

All my words are there for you to see, and hear. So listen to me, far or near.
Listen to me and you will find out something you never knew, or maybe something that was right in front of you. Just stop, and listen to me.

A last.

I woke up today pondering what has been going on in the last month. It has almost been 30 days since I last felt my heart beat faster than it had in two years. And right now, I feel nothing. Don't get me wrong, I am alive and certain things do still make me smile, but something is still on my heart that won't let go.

What would it take to feel that feeling again? What would it take to be numb and not worry about it again? Praying helps, yet the feelings steam from that too.

Have you ever prayed for someone unselfishly and never understood why them? Why would you pray for them and not ones before?

At last I ask myself, what is it going to take to get my heart back beating the way it did less than 30 days ago?

I shall wait, and ponder that today.

My Eyes are My Soul

Some would say that they know me, yet they only know what I let them see. If you have never looked in my eyes and deep into my heart, then you really don't know me at all. I have up a wall at times from those that I sense mean me harm. Yet I sense when someone needs to know me if I look into their eyes and read what they see. Most are as confused and troubled as I have been before.
I have been told that my truths could help someone and that I should share more. Yet they aren't ready for my truths yet. So I wait and rather them ask before I just give out information that they may not be ready for.

You see when you look into my eyes really, you can see my pain that I have carried around in my heart. You can hear it in my voice, my laugh and sometimes in my sigh. I may say that I am fine, and for the moment, I just may be. Yet my soul says different and I have yet to release all of that to others.

I have before and most have taken it and bruised it more, attacked it and even ran with it.
So until you really want to sit down and know me before judging me, ask yourself this.
Are you ready to listen?
Are you ready to open up your heart and mind?
Are you ready to look at yourself through my eyes?

My eyes are my soul. Look if you dare.

Today in my world

I have to say that right now, I am feeling a Jones, a Love Jones if you will. For who, well that is hard to say. One is someone that will love me til the end of time, the other is not ready yet has had me for too long. I have to choose today, for my own well being. I am pondering how to give the same love to just one and let the other go....Today in my world, I my choose my Lord, over man. He will not let me fall, he will lift me up always, nothing will stop him from being there when I need him to be. HE will love me no matter what I achieve and praise me when even the littlest thing great happens to me.

Yes, I have a Love Jones for my Lord, and today, HE wins.

Drowning

Fading away like a old instant picture. Losing my breathe because my heart hurts, all the while, you do nothing, say nothing, you drown out my crys, my words, my pain with other things to do. People are disposable to you, and so is my heart, I am drowning in the fear of knowing its over. Yet can I honestly say I didn't want it to be? Can I honestly say that I don't you just like you don't want me? Is it that I felt betrayed when we were together in hopes that you would GET IT together? You stopped doing the simple things, like calling every other day, just to say hey and see how I was doing. No more texting me pictures of me saying that this is why you can't sleep. Because visions of me keep you up at night. I guess your feelings got the best of you and your were drowning in something, what more could i do? I am here and you were there, yet, you let everything stop. The blood from my heart filled up to it's max, and now left me feeling as if I am suffocating. Suffocating from all the hurt, all the lies, all the moments when I thought you were keeping it real, and it was just a front in my eyes.
I am drowning in this sorrow and this felling of non existence to you. Hopeless in thinking what I did was the right thing to do, yet, I haven't gotten a response from you. I guess I won't because that is what you do.
So I guess I will drown myself with my books, my God, and my packed away love for you.

Self Evaluation.

So I am thinking about what has happened over these past couple of weeks. And I still have some unanswered questions from loved ones in my life. Question like, how could you leave me when you said you never would? How could you say you loved me when your action show otherwise? What did I do to you to make you feel like it was ok to hurt me in anyway?

I ask these questions because my heart hurts, and I can't seem to understand why it keeps going on with friends, family and those that I love. Funny, I have been known to give great advice in the past, but it doesn't seem to work for me. So I just listen and take it all in and self evaluate.

The success I have created for myself has become lonely, and yet I wonder, if I were just a regular person, or maybe just a statistic, would things be different for me. I have been told that I intimidate most, and that is why I am single. I have been told that I am too nice, and that is why people take advantage...SO what so I really do? Become evil? Become a Statistic, become that one chick that will do any and everything to get people to love her, like her and stay?

Naw, I can't do that. My Pride, and my Ego, will not let me.

OMG

What a week this has been! I have been out of the loop as far as the web world goes and have been going crazy! No internet and no computer can really take a toll on someone. Anyway, I am back. So what did I miss?

Hmm

So I am just here. I am ok with how things are going now, yet, there is something missing. I am trying to figure out what it is.

WOW

It has been a great weekend, great week and I am feeling pretty good about the next steps that are coming up. Life has showed me some changes that I needed to see and now it is time to look forward to my future, my REAL future. I will let no one stop me, or stand in my way. I will let no one stop my growth, as I am in control of what happens to me with Gods help.

Hmmm

How long is Silence golden?

No matter what they say, he is real!

Never had I been put to the test that I have been before this. God has brought me to the place where I needed to be and humbling me to execept all things that he has put in front of me. I will never say that I am perfect, nor can I say that I always have the answer to things. I really had to put all of my faith in God and let him take care of it. Many people may not believe that there is a God. Yet many don't believe that I have a strong faith the God is the ruler of my whole being. I know what he has done in my life and what he has brought me through. I am truly blessed with the gift of writing that he has giving me. I am truly blessed to God giving me the faith and the determination to stay focused in getting a job (which I start March 29th!) and I am blessed to still have a GPA of 3.0 in Graduate school set to graduate April 2011. I have so many things to be thankful for. I just wanted to share with you all, and know that I am so happy. For me it is the little things that keep me happy and moving.

Angels

I have been blessed with a number of angels that watch over me and have come to my rescue when I think that I would fall, they catch me. I am truly blessed and can't tell you how much God means to me. He is bringing me thru everything you could possibly think of. Yet, I am still here. Thank you God, cause without you, I am nothing.

Get your copy now

You can now buy Situations on Xlibris.com for 19.95. This is a print on demand, so it will be shipped to you. Thanks for all your support, will let you know when you can buy it on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.

You can buy it online right now!

https://www2.xlibris.com/bookstore/bookdisplay.aspx?bookid=70774

Let's Get it!

Re-published the first book today and the second one is right behind it. I am very excited and blessed. I am doing big thangs people!

Today

I prayed last night for strength with my Pastor, Pastor Bryan E Crute of Destiny Metropolitan Worship and I felt so much better and was very prepared for my interview that I had this morning with Home Depot. People I ask that you continue to pray for me, as I have another interview with the census today and one tomorrow with Great Clips. If you didn't know by now, I am a person about my business, and will do whatever I need to to get the job done.

Let us pray

I am praying for new beginnings and strength. I am praying that the lord hears me and understands my request. Knowing that they are not meant to be selfish and knowing that I wouldn't ask for something that I haven't tried to get on my own before. So let us pray....

I am ...

To be honest, I don't know what I am right now. My feelings are all over the place and I am just here. I have never felt like this before. Somewhat lost....well not so much lost, but just there without much use. Did you know that looking for a job is just like having one? I spending about eight hours a day looking online for a job and then I do have to do homework. It is just a lot. The one thing that is keeping me from going insane is that I do have GOD. But what I don't have are those that pretended to be interested or those that pretended to care. And that is what makes me standoffish from certain people. Once I had told a few people that I lost my job, the phone calls stopped...isn't that something? Should I be surprised? Naw, not really.. I just roll on and say that is a bunch of tom foolery if you ask me. So such as life.

On the grind again

I am on the hunt again for a job. It sucks, but it is a blessing. The blessing is that I will not have to deal with those crazy people anymore. When certain people have power given to them, they get drunk with it and lose their minds. I am going to school for Leadership and know that that is not how you treat people. Personal feelings are to stay away from the work place. But I am not going to let this get me down. I have God on my side and will keep him there.